meorbudakkacamata: January 2010

31 January 2010

Tomorrow

budakkacamata here. avril lavigne. gosh, i wish she could go back to her old roots of punk/rock. her latest album 'best damn thing' doesn't suit my taste for her music. i awesomely miss her old record like 'let go' and 'under my skin'. her songs are wicked and she really puts her attitude in her song. it's like she have this kinda 'sparkle' which makes her song good like for example, 'my world'. the lyrics of the song tells the story of she live her everyday life in her hometown ontario, canada. it's like she put her everyday doings/the things that happened in her life into her songs. when the 1st time i heard the song 'girlfriend' , i was like what the hell just happen. has she gone mainstream like the other douchebag artist these days that only concern about money and not the passion in their music. sure they are some artist like that with good songs but come on, don't go mainstream cause people like poppish music and stuff. where's the pureness? screw people who thinks miley cyrus is awesome and screw the people who thinks the jonas brother is hot. pop music destroy the music scene. if my band were a famous , we wouldn't change our genres to mainstream just to get recognition/fame. we should stick to our roots which have made cheesecake murder today. we don't jamm songs like the jonas brothers/david archuleta, we jamm songs like metallica, avenged sevenfold, billy talent, my chemical romance and etc. these are the type of bands that doesn't change their genre which made famous today. lastly, i wish that avril lavigne could go back to her 'let go'/'under my skin' days :)

here's the lyrics to the song 'tomorrow' by avril lavigne :

And I wanna believe you,

When you tell me that it'll be ok,

yeah I try to believe you,

But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,

It always turns out to be a different way,

I try to believe you,

Not today, today, today, today

(Today)

I don't know how I'll feel,

tomorrow, tomorrow

I don't know what to say,

tomorrow, tomorrow,

it's a different day,

(Tomorrow)

It's always been up to you,

It's turning around,

It's up to me,

I'm gonna do what I have to do,

just don't

Give me a little time,

Leave me alone a little while,

Maybe it's not too late,

not today, today, today, today, today...

I don't know how I'll feel,

tomorrow, tomorrow

I don't know what to say,

tomorrow

(tomorrow)

Tomorrow is a different day

Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah, and I know I'm not ready,

Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah,hey yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah yeah yeah, I'm not ready,

Hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah, hey yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,

When you tell me that it'll be ok,

Yeah I try to believe you,

Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow... it may change

Tomorrow... It may change

budakkacamata. chalo <3

29 January 2010

DANG!

budakkacamata here. dang! i wish i own these pair of supra cuban. you know how much these pair worth here in malaysia? it frikkin' RM420. DANG! now is the for diabolical plan to 'pujuk/bodek' or persuade my dad to buy me a pair these shoes for FREE! :)

p/s ; these shoes is not available in m'sia but the have the tk society which is pack with shitloads of awesomeness *super thumbs up away!*

budakkacamata. chalo <3

27 January 2010

Frikkin' Owl Twenty O' Years

budakacamata here. the day that was the 26th of january 2010 marks the 20 years of my life. throughout the years it was treating me well. i would say that when i was 16/17, it was the best teenage years of my life. at that time, it was the first time i felt like i want to rebel and feel like doing things on my own and it felt great. hang out with friends, do stuff that we weren't suppose to do, keeping myself awake by listening my fav songs/tunes and 'tak ikut cakap mak bapak'. that was then and this is now. i'm still the rebellious type of person as i am today. when things get out of hands, i'm the person to talk especially when it comes to families. okay, lets put the past aside and stick to the present. i don't expect much for my birthday this year cause i'm a grown man already not a boy but hey, a birthday wish from all of my closest friends isn't so bad after all. it's the little things that counts. it doesn't bothers me who gives the biggest present or stuff. i really enjoy the little things that my friends do to me for my birthday. like the birthday comments that my friends send to me on facebook, the text message that i received from my closest friends and an unexpected call from a 'friend' of mine. even my lecturers wishing me a happy birthday but all i can say that i got some awesome friends and family that cares for me even if things that they do can hurt me.

words can't describe how awesome/great my friends are. here's some people whose brighten up my life everyday and every step of the way.

HOME:

MOOSE

ZHAF

KEVIN

ALEP

SYAMIL

NAVEEN

MATT

AMEER
HANIS

FENDY

PAK YANG

AFIF

ETC.

COLLEGE:

DAUS

AMMAR

APIS
WAN
ZUL

ZETTY

ZAEN
NADH
OPAH
ATIQ
ARA

ARUL

ECAH
SAFIAH

CLASSMATES

lastly, i would like to say that i'm proud to be one of your friends. it doesn't matter the things that we do together whether it's right or wrong but the most important thing is right now that we have a strong relationship as friends and i hope that it will lasts forever. more of lepaking/shishas/chatting/b'ball/pillow talk/eating burger/laughs/eating together/movie nights will come along our journey :')

i really dig this song for the moment. 'a lunatic's lament' by alesana :

If only you could see
If only you could see your the only girl I've ever dreamed of
If only you could see
If only you could see...

Should I apologize to such pathetic eyes
Just the sight of you has made me sick tonight (tonight)
It was your poison kiss that turned me into this
Then again there is a chance you could be mine tonight

Darling will you please take a walk with me we can count the stars that disappear
I wish you could see your the only girl I've ever dreamed of are you satisfied?

What fate has led me here... Oh please forgive me dear
I don't know if I could survive on my own (my own)
I could have married you instead I buried you
Now I will see if I can fall asleep alone (alone)

Darling will you please take a walk with me we can count the stars that disappear
I wish you could see your the only girl I've ever dreamed of are you satisfied?

Are you satisfied?
The nightmares coming true
Are you satisfied?
Girl it's only you
Are you satisfied?
I'm telling you the truth
Are you satisfied?

I wish you could see your the only girl I've ever dreamed of
Darling will you please take a walk with me we can count the stars that disappear
I wish you could see your the only girl I've ever dreamed of are you satisfied?

budakkacamata. chalo <3

25 January 2010

Grandpa To Grundge

budakacamata here. last week have been the toughest week i've ever had so far for 2010. well, my grandaunty passed away last friday. that sucks and didn't go well, two of my best friends going to fly to aussie to further their studies and this damn sure that i'm going to miss them a lot. they like my weekend buddies that i hang out with to talk about problems and stuff. getting advice from them is a real helper. lastly, my assignments is stacking up. when it come to assignments, it's going to be real pain in the arse. surely i've promised myself that i'm going to do good in my work and assignments stuff, don't skip classes and all but i'm trying my best. i remember these motivating words that my lecturer spoke to me 'if you want to succeed in culinary arts even when you don't like graphic design, you have to strive to be the best, i know that your dad doesn't give you the permission to pursue your dream in culinary arts but if you do your best in your graphic design, i'm sure you can your degree in culinary arts'. damn! when that sentence comes to my mind, it reminds me how knowledge is important to me. i know that i don't like this graphic design thing but i'm starting to get used to it. i just have to do my best to in my graphic design in order to get my degree in culinary arts. i hope one day i can get that degree. the best of both worlds right?

yesterday i was hanging out with my best buds sheeshaing at our usual spot. one of my best buds invited one of his friend. it was a girl and a hot one also. so we met. her name was izzati. we chat, shisha, sharing coke, stories and stuff. then my friend tells me to story a little bit of info bout jane doe to izzati to know from a woman's point of view. after all the stories that i told bout jane doe to izzati, she only have one conclusion. maybe, just maybe that she's waiting for me to pop out the question. i mean to confess to her that i love her. it's just a suggestion from a friend's friend but i never think that these type of question could come out from a girl's mouth. maybe the thing that izzati said is true but the things that bothers my mind right now is when's the right time to confess to her. *sigh* it doesn't matter how the ending goes. i just wanted her to know that i love her even if she doesn't accept it but at least she knows :')

WISH ME LUCK ON MY ASSIGNMENTS/LOVELIFE/AWKWARDNESS/LIFE

budakkacamata. chalo <3

22 January 2010

There She Goes, There She Goes Again

budakkacamat here. how does it feel when we starting to avoid people especially with the ones we love. for the past 3 weeks, i've been trying to avoid some people in my life. i really don't have a point why i'm avoiding them but maybe it's the best for me and my studies cause these people have been in the way of my studies i think. i don't know whether these words i'm typing right now is right or wrong. i'm not that perfect in judging people from the way they act/look/do things. i'm just being who i am right now but the things that i'm doing right is changing the way who i am. is it a good thing? i don't know. maybe i'm confused with the things that's happening in my surrounding. college life/unrequired love/friends/awkward moments/dads who don't understands the meaning of passion and do the things i like. sometimes i wish i want things to go back the way they were especially when i'm trying to avoid jane doe. we haven't talk for two weeks and when we intertwined, i just stand there like a stone and do nothing. she treats me the same way but it hurts to see that i'm hurting myself to avoid jane doe but i don't that extra sparks to make that person happy or be a better person for that special someone. everybody wants to be proud of ourselves for the things that we do especially my parents. my dad also hope that i do good/great in my studies but hey, i'm not that perfect to get straight a's all the time on my exams or submitting my assignments on time but all i can say that i'm trying my best striving to do the things that i like and hanging out with my best buds at college and at home. overall, i would really like to see me getting back together with jane doe as friends even when i know that we were never meant for each other. here's a poem/sentence/lyrics that i found on the internet. credits to the author :

Heart,
I know i've been hard on you.
I'm sorry for the things I put you through.
Before you start to break on me,
Or ask for sympathy I need to make you see.
Oh, heart
I'm not sure its been long enough
to say that what I feel is really love
There is just one way to learn
Sometimes we'll get hurt
and right now its our turn.

Give it time, help me through.
Heart, we can do this together.

Your my strength, your my soul.
I need you now more then ever

Heart,
all the hurt will soon be gone,
if you'll just keep on being strong.
You will always be my friend
So keep on hanging on
and we'll find love again

Give it time, help me through.
Heart, we can do this together

Your my strength, your my soul.
I need you now more then ever

Heart
I know i've been hard on you
I'm sorry for the things I put you through
Please don't you break on me
I need to make you see, it wasn't meant to be
'Cause you will always be my friend
So keep on hanging on,
and we'll find love again.

budakkacamata. chalo <3

20 January 2010

An Old Maroon Hot Air Balloon

budakacamata here. this guy in the picture above is a synthpop music genius named adam young from the band owl city. he's the guy that brings you the famous hit 'fireflies', 'hello seattle' and etc. i admire his works, songs and his creativity. each time when i hear his songs, it makes me feel like i am at a different place/world. it's like a roller - coaster ride fill with fun/awesomeness/laughter/romance/sadness/feel like a 4 year old/happy/fantasy. that's how i describe most of his songs. my all time owl city's song is 'the saltwater room'. i tell you when i hear this song, it gives me butterflies. yeah! freaking butterflies! this song reminds me of the time when you're very sure that she's the one and damn! i wish that girl was mine. i always get that kind of impression when i'm hearing this song. here's the lyrics to the song 'the saltwater room' by owl city :

I opened my eyes last night
and saw you in the low light
Walking down by the bay,
on the shore, staring up at the planes
that aren’t there anymore
I was feeling the night grow old
and you were looking so cold
Like an introvert,
I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began
to shiver violently before
You happened to look
and see the tunnels all around me
Running into the dark
underground
All the subways around
create a great sound
To my motion fatigue:
farewell
With your ear to a seashell
You can hear the waves
in underwater caves
As if you actually were inside
a saltwater room

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone,
I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home,
why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling,
do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

Can you believe that the crew has gone
and wouldn’t let me sign on?
All my islands have sunk
in the deep, so I can hardly relax
or even oversleep
I feel as if I were home
some nights
when we count all the ship lights
I guess I’ll never know
why sparrows love the snow
We’ll turn off all of the lights
and set this ballroom aglow

(So tell me darling,
do you wish we’d fall in love?)

Time together is just never quite enough
When you and I are alone,
I’ve never felt so at home
What will it take to make or break this hint of love?
We need time, only time
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of?
If this is what I call home,
why does it feel so alone?
So tell me darling,
do you wish we’d fall in love?
All the time, all the time

budakkacamata. chalo <3

18 January 2010

Pizza Night

budakkacamate here. today's great. everything was planned out so well. my best buds syamil got my help with his photography assignments. we hung out at tropicana city mall. i haven't spend time with family in awhile especially with my mom. me and my mom is close. i'm not only treat her as a mom but treat her as friend also. when i'm having a problem, i spend a lot of time telling my problems to my mom. well, she helps me a lot giving advice and always telling me to stay positive even when we are down. my mom is the best *thumbs up*

and for dinner, my mom order us dominos pizza for dinner. WOW! i never taste a pizza this awesome plus when eating with your family. it's a awesome feeling. sitting on couch, watching a movie, eating a nice warm pepperoni pizza with extra cheese and having a nice conversation with your family while sipping a nice vanilla coke. total relaxation. I LOVE MY FAMILY :')

i'm into the song 'bella luna' by jason mraz for the moment :

Mystery the moon
A hole in the sky
A supernatural nightlight
So full but often right
A pair of eyes a closing one
A chosen child in golden sun
A marble dog that chases cars
To farthest reaches of the beach and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars

The cosmic fish they love to kiss
They're giving birth to constellations
No riffs and oh no reservation
If they should fall you get a wish or dedication
May I suggest you get the best
For nothing less than you and I
Let's take a chance as this romance is rising over before we lose the lighting
Oh bella bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Do do do do do

You are an illuminating anchor
Of leagues to infinite number
Of crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the ebb and flows of hunger
You're dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You're the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Intertwining like a ring around the finger, of a girl
I'm just a singer, you're the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other

May I suggest you get the best
Of your wish may I insist
That no contest for little you or smaller I
A larger chance yet, but all them may lie
On the rise, on the brink of our lives
Bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Bella luna
My beautiful beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other, oh oh oh

budakkacamata. chalo <3>

16 January 2010

Promises Doesn't Lasts Forever

budakkacamate here. don't you guys just hates it when a plan doesn't comes together? i feel the same way right now and i have to say that i really have an anger management when it comes to making decision. i know it can be hard sometimes to make one especially when you want to plan what to wear when you're going out with your friends/love ones. i have that kind of problems right now. it's funny to think that i have a hard picking what clothes to wear when i want to go out. not calling a 'picky' person but i remember the last time i'm being pickish about things when it comes to clothes, i want to buy a very neat looking sweater and it was purple. i don't know whether i wanna buy it or not but the sweater comes in red also. it takes me about 45 minutes to chose that sweater. WTH! when i think back bout the clothes picking sutff, i imagine myself how picky i am at that time. well, i'm proudly to say that i'm not that 'picky' person anymore. so far, so good. when i see the things i like, have the rights colors, the right size, i just take it and buy it and its treating me good for the lasts 4 months i think.

'promises doesnt lasts forever'. last week i was planning a get together with my best friends to go lepaking at our usual hang out spot at bangsar. everything was going fine, everyone cleared their schedule to hang out and we haven't seen each other in awhile. i planned 4 days before the get together until just hours before i want to go out, all of my best buds called me to tell that they have other 'important' plans than just to hang out and having a great time. sheesh! when i got the call, i was completely pissed off! it would be better if they told me that they can't go the day before. at least i understand but telling me just minutes before i got to the place. that sucks! sometime even your best buds can be a pain in the ass but hey, they're my best buds who knows me best.

budakkacamata. chalo <3>

10 January 2010

Fingers Of Love

budakkacamata here. the 1st week of college sucks, i hate my lovelife, sometimes i hate my parents especially my dad, i hate my car, i hate the way i sound sometimes and why do i sound so desperate when the topic love come out all of a sudden. the thing about my dad is like he knows everything. this is right, this is wrong. whatever je la. at least i know what is wrong and what's right. it's not like i'm commiting a crime is it. i wish that he could understand the situation that i'm in right now. how can he know when he's a thousand miles away from malaysia. *sigh*

it's kinda cute what the picture above is potraying about. i really really wish that i'm in that relationship with that much joy/fun/love with someone which i like. don't you guys think that being in a relationship with someone is the best thing that had ever happen to you. i think it's the best feeling that everyone have felt. it's better than getting new things because the relationship that people had with the opposite sex is true/real, not the shitty relationship that some malaysian people have these days. sometimes i feel pity for the people who don't really appreciate/cherish the relationship that they had. i'm not only pointing the relationship between a boy and a girl. relationship can be in many forms if i'm not mistaken. like for example, a relationship that i have with my dad. i know that we don't have the same thinking. sure i hate him but hey, he's still my dad who raise me up which makes me who i am today.

what i'm trying to said is that i wish i had a relationship with jane doe when i have the chance. i wish our everyday lives is to do like the picture above. i know it sound kinda cheesy but hey, i love her and i think i still have the chance to make things right. I HOPE :')

budakkacamata. chalo <3>

04 January 2010

Uncertain

budakkacamata here. it's been awhile since my last post. first of all, happy new year. i can't believe it twenty frikkin' ten right now. secondly, here's the list for my new years resolution :

- be a better son/friend/brother/cousin/grandson etc.

- stop being lazy

- be more ambitious

- involve more in playing sports

- lastly, be more understanding to others

today's probably the worst day of 2010 i have so far. i missed my 1st class at college for the new semester. i have the worst case of headaches/fever and yesterday i met jane doe for the 1st time after the end of my semester break. i don't know why but i got that weird feeling that she don't want to talk to me at all. i've try my best to approach her but there's no use. i try to get close to her but it seems like she don't want. have i done something wrong to her is it? sure we've been talking/chatting via facebook/ym but when i have the chance to meet her, i surely know that she don't want to talk to me. DAMN! is it so hard to get the girl that you like especially that girl is your friend. sucks to be in my situation right now. no matter how hard i've tried, there's no use in trying. it's like i'm a poll standing in front of her and she doesn't notice me at all. i don't know whether i should try my best to show my feelings towards her or move along and forget the pasts. i'm UNCERTAIN. i hope things will get better in the near future for me and jane doe. oh, the next post will be about jane doe and here is the lyrics to the song called 'jane doe' by never shout never. enjoy

NeverShoutNever - Jane Doe

jane doe

i don't even know you

but i know fo' sho'

that you are beautiful

so baby let me know

your name

damn what's her name?

cause i'm overly attracted

and terribly convinced that she could be my princess

and i could be her prince

and i felt that way, since

since i saw jane doe

jane doe

i don't even know you

but i know fo' sho'

that i could get to know ya

if you let me know

your name

damn what's her name?

cause i'm overly attracted

and terribly convinced that she could be my princess

and i could be her prince

and i felt that way, since

since i saw jane doe

she's everything i want and more

she's everything i want for sure

she's everything i want to adore

well baby i am overly attracted

and terribly convinced that you could be my lover

but i think i lost my chance

you had my first glance

oh my jane doe

budakkacamata. chalo <3

meorbudakkacamata

31 January 2010

Tomorrow

29 January 2010

DANG!

27 January 2010

Frikkin' Owl Twenty O' Years

25 January 2010

Grandpa To Grundge

22 January 2010

There She Goes, There She Goes Again

20 January 2010

An Old Maroon Hot Air Balloon

18 January 2010

Pizza Night

16 January 2010

Promises Doesn't Lasts Forever

10 January 2010

Fingers Of Love

04 January 2010

Uncertain

Friends

Hopes

Lists