meorbudakkacamata

18 August 2010

Honestly, I Really Like You

budakkacamata here. honestly, i really like you a lot and i mean a lot. today was my first final year review for my rebranding assignments. harsh critics is tough but i doesn't take an affect on me. i can take harsh critics anytime but the real story for this post is about a girl who i just met last sunday and her name's wany. i like to call her wany but she's doesn't likes it when i call her wany. i don't know why. she's a great girl to talk/text to because i can tell that she have some sense of humor that i can relate to. we became really close like last week but this week it's a different story. i don't know whether she's avoiding me or something cause when i called or texted her, she seems gloomy. i'm not trying to brag or anything but i really like her but when the first time we hung out together, damn! she's tall. i feel small like literally small. i'm like the bird & she's the eagle but i don't mind. i does bug me much about her this week. i don't mind with the not texting back or the gloomy voice or anything.t it's just worries me for her as a friend or whatever you wanna call it.

people kept accusing that i'm already her 'special someone' or whatever you call it. wtf! i really like her but i'm not that desperate into a relationship. for now, i just see wany as a friend but honestly, i really really like her a lot & i'm being honest about it. i hope that we can be more that just friends. sure i can awkward or quiet when i'm with her but the thoughts count right? i hope. in other meaning if she's avoiding me or something, i'd be rather hear her voice telling me that we're only cut out to be friends, other than avoiding me or texting me at all. seriously, i feel relieve posting this out loud in my blog but i would be much more awesome if i just call her or something. i'm a shy person like my cat. every time when my cat sees a different person in the house, he would run to the kitchen and hide.that's me i guess. i really need to boost my confidence & self esteem when i'm going out or talk with a specific girl that i like.

p/s : i need to remind myself that i can't eat heavy stuff during sahur or it will be 3 times to the toilet for me. i really like you wany if you're reading this right now :(

here's the lyrics to 'back to me' by AAR :

Hey you
So you never really found your way
Stay true
Did you ever make it through today

That when I think about a day without it
Everyday’s the same
You wish that you could find someone
But I’m the only one to blame

Can’t you see
I beg and plead
Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you’re gonna find your way back to me

No don’t
Don’t you ever let a piece of me down
Cause time won’t
Get back when I’m never around

When we live between so many walls
That I can barely breathe
You say that you just want someone
But I’m the only one you need

Can’t you see
I Beg and plead
Cause when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you’re gonna find your way

If it’s me
That you don’t need
When the lights go out tonight I know
You’re never gonna find your way

Soon when I get you I won’t let you go
Oooh if I let you
You can take away all that I thought was wrong
And if you hear me there’s not much to say
There’s gotta be a better way

Can’t you see
I beg and plead
Cause when your eyes light up the sky tonight
I know you’re going to find your way back to me

Can’t you see
I beg and plead
Cause when the lights go out tonight
I know you’re never gonna find your way

If it’s me
That you don’t need
That when the lights go out tonight
I know you’re never gonna find you way
If you pace around the world [do you believe]
And when your eyes light up the skies at night
I know you’re gonna find your way back to me

budakkacamata. chalo <3

13 August 2010

Save Me

budakkacamata here. i just finished my tarawikh with my family at the mosque. damn! it's a been a rough week for me. its taken toll on my mind, body & soul. i'm super duper tired mentally. i really could use a long sleep but i haven't had that one in months and i mean months. i can't cope with my assignments, classes and sleep. i do sleep but i haven't a good one so far. i feel very uncomfortable every time when i'm doing my assignments or attend classes. not to brag or anything but i think that some of the lecturer can be very hostile. nothing personal but it really is. i hate the fact that some of them likes to see the negative side of a student & somehow reflect it back to you. like trying to bring you down or something. sometimes, this kinda of thing can piss me off but i can't be mad to people because the month of ramadhan had arrived. if not, i'll be swearing words that you have never even heard of.

thank ALLAH S.W.T. that i'm at home with my family enjoying watching the tele while eating kebabs & roti johns. now that's what i call spending an awesome time eating supper with your family. i wish i can do something that i like where i can handle the problems myself but its not my decision to make when the parents reinforcement comes. they can very persuasive at words. i can tell you that fate has its tricky way of showing up something in front of me that i'd never expected. all i can say that fate has brought someone new in my life. not say happy but i'm not sure whether its the real deal or not. maybe she's the one that save me while i'm this sheer madness. who knows right?

budakkacamata. chalo <3

12 August 2010

Confused

budakkacamata here. short & simple just the way i like it. i'm confused on all things. i just wanna go back to pj, put this shit storm of a dilemma that i'm having and have a little peace & quiet with family. breaking fast & do the tarawikh with them. i put my brain in a hell of a thinking but damn! i don't know how to solve this problems. lots of them. maybe i need some time and think about what happen this week. good & bad :|

budakkacamata. chalo <3

09 August 2010

Random Awesome

budakkacamata here and yes! it's 6 am here in malaysia. i'm in mcdonalds right now doing my assignments while my ears are enjoying yuna's latest song called 'random awesome'. it's an awesome song. i really admire the lyrics cause it seems like she's expressing what she's going through her life. relationships, birthdays and what that guy wore that day. super duper tired & my eyes look like a panda. here's the lyrics for yuna's 'random awesome' :

it all began
at the show one weekend
i was a friend of your cousin said
"hey how you've been"
And with your checkered shirt on
And my Reebok shoes on
Let's watch something random
turned to something awesome

And I smile I love no,
I laugh happier somehow
No I don't know what is up with me
I laugh too much recently
No, They don't know much about us
When we're exchanging glances
We'll figure out one day,
what happened on your 24th birthday

It all began with a simple

confession
You had an urge to kiss me and
I was on the verge to miss you
and it happen,
no
we don't understand
no
i won't even budge
before we didn't hang out much
So save me in your playlist
so,
You wont forget this
And if this dont quite go your way
You'll still have me on replay

With your checkered shirt on
And my Reebok shoes on
Let's watch something random
turned to something awesome

And I smile I love no,
I laugh happier somehow
No I don't know what is up with me
I laugh too much recently
No, They don't know much about us
When we're exchanging glances
We'll figure out one day,
what happened on your 24th birthday

p/s : a happy birthday for my lovely classmates nis & ecah. hope you guys have an awesome birthday especially you ecah. MENGHANTUI KAU!!!

08 August 2010

A Song For The Weekend

budakkacamata here. andrew belle's songs kept playing in my mind over and over again. it kept playing in my head when i was doing my assignments, eating, watching the tele, in the shower, facebooking and right now. his songs are catchy & soothing. in other words, kinda like adam young of owl city but with acoustic guitar & a much more manly voice. plus, he has a thing when it comes in doing duo act featuring women with an awesome vocals. he's the featured artist on purevolume for july i guess if i'm not mistaken. i can tell you that this guy knows how to make acoustic song sounds even better. i enjoy my time listening to andrew belle and so does my best bud kevin. he seems to be enjoying it. so this is my song for the weekend.

budakkacamata. chalo <3

07 August 2010

These Acoustic Sounds That Shatter Me Lovely

budakkacamata here. let'stalk about acoustic performances shall we. i enjoy my quality time listening to awesome acoustic songs. i usuaally listen to this kind of songs at night/evening while sipping my favorite drink. it's an awesome feeling. i can tell you that these bands that turn their record in a studio songs turn into an easy to listen song by using an acoustic guitar and a bongo. most of my friends here in pj are mostly metalheads, jiwang song lovers & hip - hoppers. you can say that only a few of my friends enjoy themselves listening to acoustic songs.

people always label acoustic songs as cheesy, insecure people with who needs closure and boring. well, i think opposite way because it's light for your ear to listen. if you have an awesome guitar player and a vocalist with melodic voice equals to a good acoustic song. it would be more awesome if the band can turn all their songs to acoustic. not many bands can turn their song into a sing a long acoustic for the fans to enjoy. some of them just suck at doing acoustic. they just stick to their electric guitar and kick it into distortion but most acoustic songs are good. mostly all of them are good. seriously good!

my main genre that i enjoy is metal & alternative rock but second is acoustic. when i listen metal songs too much, i feel kinda boring and that's when the acoustic songs come in. i just put in my headphones and blast it away to my sleep. sometimes when i go to bed, i enjoy myself listening to acoustic songs until i my eyes close shut. these are my top 10 acoustic songs list. do click the one of them. i'm sure you'll enjoy it.

1. andrew belle - the ladder

2. the maine - right girl

3. all time low - dear maria, count me in

4. john mayer - daugthers

5. paramore - decode

6. kings of convenience - 24-25

7. a day to remember - have faith in me

8. the bravery - time won't let me go

9. foo figthers - times like these

10. muse - unintended

i can tell you that all of these acoustic songs above are awesome in the best way. you can have an eargasm by hearing to these songs.

budakkacamata. chalo <3

01 August 2010

August Rush

budakkacamata here. yesterday was awesome time hanging out my hometown friends. may i introduce to you my crazy, talkative and funny friends.

ameer a.k.a. remix/panda fighter

likes - his 'red' satria, future wife, be annoying to afif, shisha, karaoke and malay songs

dislike - sucky shisha, get annoyed by afif.

fadhli a.k.a. fadh hot

likes - designer clothes, gossiping around, frisbee, fashion

dislikes - betrayed by friends and people who wear crocs

hafiz a.k.a. abang tough

likes - awesome shisha, ikea's meatballs, going to gym, being muscular, loyal to friends

dislikes - being cocky, sucky shishas and not having a great time

these are the type of friends that i usually hang out with having a good time laughing and having an awesome shisha.

august just started and i'm in a rush of everything. here's the list for this month :

- sketches for my minor discipline assignments

- you gotta have faith

- ramadhan & praying

- service my car

- xbox 360

- badminton with house mates

- avenged sevenfold's 'nightmare'

- movie marathon

- love needed

- me love my BB

- update blog more often

- break fast with family & friends

- series & movies downloads

that's about. for my muslims friends whose reading this post right now, i would like to say :

credits to the designer :)