30 December 2010

A Devastating 2010

19.12.10

i'll never forget the times where you used to talk to me about photography, mercedes benz & bmw.

you used to sit at the living room watching national geographic or discovery on astro where i would join to watch it with you but most of all, i will not forget the soothing sounds that you make with your violin and piano when i was little.

your're the only inspiration that i need when i was down.

you and grandma would look after when mom & dad are busy with their work overseas.

i will never forget you tok :'(

Something To Laugh About Before 2011

'happy new year people'

08 December 2010

Your Feelings Are More Important Of Course



budakkacamata here :




Oh, the, Razor blade, that's what I call love

I bet you pick it up and mess around with it
If I put it down
It gets extremely complicated
Anything to forget everything



You got to take me out
At least once a week
Whether I'm in your arms
Or I'm at your feet
I know exactly what you're thinking
You won't say it now
But in your heart it's loud



Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Oh, drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry
There you go



Oh, the razor blade
Wish it would snap this rope
The world is in your hand
Or it's at your throat
At times it's not that complicated
Anything to forget everything



He would never talk
But he was not shy
She was a street-smart girl
But she could not lie
They were perfect for each other
Say it now
Cause in your heart it's loud



Oh no, my feelings are more important than yours
Oh, drop dead, I don't care, I won't worry



Ayhh



Sweetheart
Your feelings are more important of course
Of course
Everyone you wanted
Everything that we would take from them
I don't wanna know, I don't wanna know
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
No, don't, okay

p/s : i miss the memories :(

awal muharram just passed. i got no resolutions to think about or something. all i know that i'm hoping that 2011 or 1432 will be a good year for me. there'll be bumps along the ride and i can assure of that. i really hope that i can make a difference. what i mean is a good difference for myself, my family, my friends and the people around me.

budakkacamata. chalo

04 December 2010

Just Like No Other

budakkacamata here. here's some pictures of random fashionable ladies that i met online just recently


 her name's elenene. she's 20 from germany. she's a fashion student. she's kinda random sometimes. talking about art, fashion and sometimes about games or stuff that you wouldn't even think of
 regine. 18. like to webcam with random people. fashionably fixated. i like her style. she's from la. she would like to see me if she had the chance :)
the name's kristipah but i call her tipah. weird right? age 20 from estonia. i never heard that place before but she's awesome when it comes to fashion. i never thought that she can be a good listener. kudos to you tipah


p/s : these girls are awesome. they're super friendly. i like their styles. for more info, check them at lookbook.nu. some of them got facebook and stuff and some of them don't. enjoy :)


creative writing here i come :D


budakkacamata. chalo

30 November 2010

I Need You To Understand

budakkacamata here. dayuuummmm! i never thought that i would be this long. this was the best semester break ever so far. lots and lots storytelling. my best friend mustaffa been back for two weeks and it's been great. lepaking every night having laughs, having breakfast lunch dinner 24/7 (outside of course), playing online games, stalking, talked about shoes and smoke shitloads of shisha. my work at the shisha had been awesome yet tiring. there were lots of positive reviews with the shishas that i make for the customers. there's a few of the regulars that really like my shisha that much that they only come when my shift on the shop is on. kinda touching feeling that people really like my shisha. i thought that few of my close friends like my shisha. i'm was freaking damn happy like a cow waiting to be milked by the farmer. that's didn't sound right. huhuhh. for now, i'm taking a week break from the shop cause it's tiring as heck and the sales's flowing like crazy but i'm happy by the way. can't wait to continue my work at the shop. i need moolah to buy my fixie bike and spend the moolah to buy shirts whatsoever.


this is how my face react when i saw my best friend after 1 year :O
i was shocked on how his hair grow from a little fro to a big cat's hairball. i mean his hair was bigger than his head. sometimes, when me, moose and some of our close friends go watch movies at the cinema (unstoppable which is damn good movie. clearly reminding me of an old action movie where it goes straight forward to the action where there's no lolly-gagging), his hair was too big & fluffy where the person sitting behind him can't see the movie looking straight. he had to tilt his head to the left/right to see the movie. kinda funny but a great moment to remember. we had rojak and cendol after the movie and shisha later that night. it was more awesome than giving a wet willy to your siblings. the best part is that we repeat what we do over & over again and it never gets old. the best semester break so far.


i really can't wait to hang out/do some crazy stuff with my friends that are having their exams at the moment like the olden days. enough's enough. sometimes when i work at the shop, all the customers that i see at the shop are all dudes with their 'special someone'. the truth is, i kinda envy of them lepaking having a shisha with their 'special someone' while i'm at my station shishaing alone. sometimes it feel great and sometimes it's sucks! like literally sucks. honestly, i feel so fucking alone. i need some female company. what i mean is someone to talk to. not having a girlfriend or something. i can be kinda picky sometimes but blah! i don't give a rat's ass bout it anymore. i need it! please! am i sound desperate? right? correct? YA ALLAH!


and sometimes when i wan to go sleep, just when i'm about to close my eyes listening to some songs before going to dreamland, i always saying to myself who's the next person that going fall with me if you know what i mean. that's the moment where i start to lose my mind and be in a dark dark place. this is my heart screaming out for any love out there. fuck! i am sounding desperate. this has to stop. i need to find someone a.s.a.p. or maybe i need a comfort food to calm myself down. i need some nice sushis at sushi king, playing basketball with my friends, rojak and cendol, left 4 dead and nice shisha to top it all off. that would really made my day less sad/dark.


budakkacamata. chalo <3


p/s : i need comfort food pronto!

15 November 2010

These Magic Fingers

'ze workplace'

budakkacamata here. been busy with work and friends. it's been hectic with the nagging customers but i can  handle it. all and all, i made good money. will try to update more often since there's a free wifi at the shop. wish me luck and i wanna wish all of my muslim friends a selamat hari raya haji/korban/aidiladha. can't wait to taste the beef and all. going to get my fixie bike soon.

budakkacamata. chalo <3

the no. 21 <3 :)

01 November 2010

Let The Fun Begins



budakkacamata here. november november awesome november. i want to join this month to the fullest because the fun and games will come to me. i don't know why but i have a hunch that i will have so much fun especially with my friends of course. first up, my best friend moose or moosetoufu which i like to call him by that name is coming back to malaysia 18th november. can't wait! and i can't wait to continue my job at hookahhouse and designing some t -shirts for some clients. i like to design random stuff from buildings to vintage vintage stuff. most of my clients really darn like my designs. i couldn't believe it but it's true. they pay me 50 bucks per design. i'm a happy boy indeed. anyway, the shisha shop that i work at pays 50 bucks per night. good pay? i'm not trying to boast or anything, it's just that i'm deeply glad that i've been given the opportunity to do something that i like which is making shishas for customers and designing t-shirt that i like. i'm grateful for everyone. *thumbs up*


i think i'm going to make party just for my best friends & others since i have a well paid job. the usual barbecue of course with smores and shisha on the side with an awesome fruit punch like last year's barbecue but seriously, i have been sick since last friday and it was the worst ill i have ever had so far. THE WORST! i can't sleep, my body's shivering all the time, i got cold sweats, every light that i see is yellow even though the real colour is gree, white or red and the worst out of all of it is that i lost my appetite to eat. i don't feel hungry at all but alhamdulillah, i'm getting better and kicking. i've been having my asthma since i was little. as i can remember, i have been having asthma since i was three. i remember i spend a month in the hospital because of my asthma. 


anyway, here's the list :


1. work at hookahhouse
2. designing t-shirt design for some clients
3. a surprise party for moose
4. saving money to buy a fixie
5. fixie fitness
6. save more money for the future
7. be more careful
8. mandi sungai
9. call of duty black ops
10. faith
11. series and movies downloads
12. road trips

budakkacamata. chalo <3

27 October 2010

Alhamdulillah

budakkacamata here.


Alhamdulillah or Elhamdulillah (الحمد لله) is anArabic phrase meaning "Praise to God" or "All praise is due to Allah"


p/s : out of all the crap i have been through, i'm grateful for the things that i have especially my family and friends. they're the best. even in ups and downs, they'll always support no matter what but there's something i'm not very grateful of which is my love life. i don't know why but i'm sure there's someone for me out there that Allah has prepared for me. who knows if could be one of my friends or someone new that i haven't even met yet. it just takes time. sorry for the short posts. been busy with work, exams, family & friends :)


budakkacamata. chalo <3

22 October 2010

The Fixies



budakkacamata here :


'my new hobby/obsession :)'

budakkacamata. chalo <3

Struggles & Throughout


budakkacamata here. damn! i kinda miss blogging a lot. i have been out of the radar for months i guess because of the heavy assignments & crap that i have to go through. it's been hitting hard on me physically and mentally but never personally especially the assignments. my sleeping pattern had been pretty messed up since the last 2 months. i don't sleep at night and i usually slept at the evenings. kinda suck but it get my work really well. my final year is kinda sleepless, tired, depressing, thirsty & hot. the weather is a bitch especially in sepang cause last tuesday was the worst and i almost had a heat stroke. it was hot as heck. the outcome of it is that i have severe fever for 3 days. i can't stand up, i have to sleep all day which is not cool at all plus with the weather, i'm feeling thirsty all the time, dizzy and all. it was awful! more awful than last year's fever.


when the final year arrive for the graphic student. there's two things you need to worry about which is harsh criticism & bitchy lecturers. i don't mind them at all cause they've been kinda like that with me from the start cause of my attitude with them. i don't give a crap about it but at least i do my work & pass them all up. i don't like to complain but i keep it to myself or in other words, i complain to myself not like other people & don't be a dick about it but there's no perfection in anyone cause last monday i almost thrown a tantrum at one of my lecturers. the truth is, i have an anger issues but i founded a way to control it. for example, having a shisha or playing games to calm me down or shuffle random songs on my ipod but hey, i really calms me down :)


there's mo to come plus i'm still tired from the college & assignments even though it's over. i just started my final exam which is not that much. so expect a lot of posts from me this week or next week.


budakkacamata. chalo <3

09 October 2010

Busy & Lazy

budakkacamata here. been busy with assignments & assessment piling up. i hate this feeling. sleepless nights & lots coffee/tea/fizzy stuff to drink to kept me awake. i really need a good sleep. will keep you up with updates. sorry. please follow me on twitter if you want to. it's MeorHaffiz. wish me luck for the finals, sleepless nights and the creativity. toodles :)


budakkacamata. chalo <3

01 October 2010

The Rich Gets Raped & The Poor Grew Old

budakkacamata here. hello october and goodbye sucky september plus the raya rush. things have been getting painful & worse. am i sounding desperate? thank god there's an event at college called adholic event for art & design student. i'm participating in t'shirt design contest which i really like. design horror & cute stuff on a t-shirt manually with a fabric marker which is effin' awesome. college sucks and also my friends. i don't know why every time when i want to hang out with my friends, they always giving the same bullshit like 'i'm outside', 'i'm kinda busy right now, i'll confirm with you late' and the outcome of this one is where i'm sitting at a corner feeling piss off. seriously, i don't wanna involve with them at all. seriously, come & looking for me if you really have time to hang out cause i have been sitting my ass off in this house for 3 weekends straight and wasting my phone bill & time calling you guys to hang out. what the fuck!


other topic is that i really got to know bout this band called neon trees. i really like this band a lot. it's like the killers combine with kings of leon's soul searching lyrics. i'm enjoying listening to these types of bands but sadly, the killers have been disbanded for a couple of months ago and at the same time, neon trees came out with their hit single animal and their cover of justin bieber's 'baby' is better than the original. click on the link to check their songs out.


here's the lyrics to their hit single 'animal' :



Here we go again
I kinda wanna be more than friends
So take it easy on me
I'm afraid you're never satisfied.

Here we go again
We're sick like animals
We play pretend
You're just a cannibal

And I'm afraid I wont get out alive
No I won't sleep tonight


Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
What are you waitin' for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight
Oh oh
I want some more
Oh oh
What are you waitin' for?
What are you waitin' for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight

Here we are again
I feel the chemicals kickin' in
It's gettin' heavier
I wanna run and hide
I wanna run and hide

I do it every time
You're killin' me now
And I won't be denied by you
The animal inside of you


Oh, oh
I want some more
Oh, oh
What are you waitin' for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight.
Oh oh
I want some more
Oh oh
What are you waitin' for?
What are you waitin' for?

Say goodbye to my heart tonight

budakkacamata. chalo <3

25 September 2010

Anatomy Of A Depression

i feel your pain snoopy. i really do.

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity. Depressed people may feel sad, anxious, empty, hopeless, helpless, worthless, guilty, irritable or restless. They may lose interest in activities that once were pleasurable, experience loss of appetite or overeating, or problems concentrating, remembering details or making decisions; and may contemplate or attempt suicide. Insomnia, excessive sleeping, fatigue, loss of energy, or aches, pains or digestive problems that are resistant to treatment may be present.


p/s : when depression hits me, i stop caring about everything & sometimes at night i like to look the skies & stars at night. just watch & do nothing. be anonymous, silent & clumsy.


budakkacamata. chalo <3

09 September 2010

Wake Me Up When September Ends



budakkacamata here. ramadhan's almost over in a couple of days & then eid mubarak's coming to celebrate that we have gone through the month of ramadhan with success of course with forgiving one another, enjoying foods with you friends & families, ear busting fireworks, open houses, visiting the relatives and of course duit raya. this picture tells a story. a lot cause this is my kampung & it holds lots of memories. it's a mosque of my great great grandfather. the mosque's small but it's awesome cause this mosque sits just right on the center of the town and this is a kampung kampung if you know what i mean. all the houses in the area is made out of wood & some concrete for the adjustment with astro for knowing the outside world. one thing that i like about this place is that when i was little on ramadhan, my grandparent's would take me there & they would do their tarawikh prayers while i was playing tag with my cousin. one time when the weather was not at the right time, i would hold my grandmother so tight because i was scared as shit & the mosque's also sits right in the middle of a jungle & i don't know what is in that jungle at that time.


and just when i was feeling safe, a big flying bug come & shock me up. the scariest part is when the bug get landed on my face. i was 5 freaking years old for god's sake. i tell you that was the scariest moment that i have ever had in my 5 year old life as a kid. at that moment, i scream & shriek like a little girl & the jemaah was shook also. it was funny & i was running around the mosque to get away from that flying thingy. my grandmother had to stop praying just to get me calm & that's the story on how i had my fear on flying bugs especially the big ones. it's one of those memories that i will never forget in my life. my grandparents were taking of me when i was little until i was 10 or 11. they're the best grandparents in the world! i love my grandmother's cooking & i love my grandfather's interest towards fast cars & photography. they're both awesome in the most beautiful way.


i think this raya will be different. i have a sense of feeling that it will be different. i don't know whether it's good or bad. i hope it's a good thing. college life suck, relationships suck & assignments suck. i've spent two days washing away my sorrows by having an awesome time with some best friends. too bad not all of them were there. meaning by in the homeland specifically my best friend in the world moose. i miss him too much. hope you have an awesome raya my friend. harap2 ade mercun kat aussie tu. not forgetting my new friend zhaf whose also studying at aussie. happy raya to you too my good friend. enjoy my time a lot with him & moose shishaing away at night talking about relationships & what not. he's a good listener also & he's awesome when it comes to giving advices about faith & relationships.


to all of my readers, best friends, juniors, seniors, shisha mates, family members & you whose reading this post right now, hope you have a rocking yet awesome raya. minta maaf banyak2 kalau ade buat salah. KUDOS!


here's the lyrics to my favorite raya song called 'dendang perantau' by our legendary actor/musician/director/comdian p. ramlee :


Di hari raya
Terkenang daku kepada si dia
Kampungku indah nun jauh di sana
Ayah serta bondaku

Di tepian mandi
Danauku hijau yang damai selalu
Nun di sanalah tempatku bertemu
Aku dan dia

Apakan daya
Masa tak akan kembali
Hancur musnahlah semuanya

Impian yang murni
Tinggal menjadi kenang-kenanganku
Hanya rangkaian kata dengan lagu
Dendang perantau
Apakan daya
Masa tak akan kembali
Hancur musnahlah semuanya

Impian yang murni
Tinggal menjadi kenang-kenanganku
Hanya rangkaian kata dengan lagu
Dendang perantau



budakkacamata. chalo <3

03 September 2010

Like There's No Tomorrow

budakkacamata here.




budakkacamata here. happy month of september friends. not much to say but it has been a rough week for the mind & the heart. last night, we took out all of our frustrations & stress by playing fireworks or mercun coz raya is coming & the spirit of raya is looking very gloomy for me. we play all sorts of mercun. ketupat, mancis, naga and of course, the lovable & squeeking mercun roket. it was awesome to play with the housemates. we took pictures & have a drink at mamak stall after that. overall it was awesome! we had a great time & hafiz is leaving for sabah the next day, so it was great & wonderful.


budakkacamata. chalo <3


p/s : i really need to find a good method or way on releasing stress because lately, it has taken toll on me physically & mentally.

31 August 2010

Yesterday Is Gone

budakkacamata here. here's some pictures i have taken during my grandfather's moreh at my great great grandfather's mosque.




budakkacamata. chalo <3

28 August 2010

While She Looked Sad In Photographs

This is the story of a girl, 
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world! 
And while she looked so sad in photographs, 
I absolutely love her, 
When she smiles... 

How many days in a year? 
She woke up with hope but she only found tears. 
And I can be so insincere, 
Making her promises never for real! 
As long as she stands there waiting, 
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes! 
How many days disappear? 
When you look in the mirror so how do you choose? 
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way- 
But you never seem to run out of things to say... 

THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL, 
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD! 
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS, 
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER, 
WHEN SHE SMILES... 

How many lovers would stay? 
Just to put of with this shit day after day! 
How did we wind up this way? 
Watching our mouths for the words that we say. 
As long as we stand here waiting, 
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose! 
How do we get there today? 
When we're walking to far for the price of our shoes! 
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way- 
But you never seem to run out of things to say!... 

THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL, 
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD! 
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS, 
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER, 
WHEN SHE SMILES... 

Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way- 
But you never seem to run out of things to say... 
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world! 
And while she looks so sad in photographs, 
I absolutely love her-

This is the story of a girl; 
Her pretty face she hid from the world! 
And while she looks so sad and lonely there, 
I absolutely love her, 
When she smiles...

This is the story of a - girl! 
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world! 
And while she looks so sad in photographs, 
I absolutely love her, 
When she smiles... 
When she smiles.

budakkacamata here. i listened to this too much. one of my absolute favorite songs & the lyrics are awesome!

budakacamata. chalo <3