budakkacamata here. isn't it wonderul enjoying the monday sunset by drinking vanilla coke with your friends and watch as sunset goes down. i wish i'm having that moment right now to enjoy myself being free and forget about the little things. i don't know why i am asking myself whether i'm moving on or still have feelings for jane doe. it's like everytime when i bump into her, i have that weird/fuzzy/weakening/dizzy kind of feeling whenever i'm around her. YA ALLAH, please show me a sign whether she's still into me or not. if not, i understand the circumstances. maybe there's a better girl than jane doe for me in the future, i hope. i recently read a page on facebook which call '50 things girls wish guys knew' and one of them 'was eye contact is key'. well, the truth is that i don't do an eye contact with jane doe at all even the little things. sometimes, when i have the chance, i would like 'curi panda/usha2' jane doe eventhough we're sitting far away. some of my friends questioned me 'why you still have feelings for her when she's treating you like crap as a friend?' and i answered 'i don't know. its like she have this weird kind of aura that attracts me everytime when we intertwined and sometimes, i'm having this weird dream that i'm having a relationship with her as lovers but that's just a dream not a reality. dang!
now i feel that i'm pulling myself away from her. i mean that my interest for her has gone down. maybe she's not the one for me. she's better with someone else i think but i will always be happy for her even when i don't have the chance to with her. it's been great to be friends with her but hey, everyone's going gaga over her. overall, i'm not comfortable with my current situation right now and i'm going to be quiet for the week and be anonymous to everyone for the time being.
enjoy the lyrics to my fav indie band 'he is we' with the song 'give it all' :
But I had no courage.
Now we’re saying goodbye.
Don’t want to miss you, tonight, oh.
Tell me it’s not over now,
I can change your mind somehow.
I, I give it all.
I trip and fall, for you.
And I, hope you wouldn’t mind.
Just one more try, for something new,
I need you, I need you.
Don’t be shocked if I cry.
You’ve changed me inside.
I turned my back on you.
You were the only reason I pulled through,
I pulled through.
Tell me it’s not over now,
I can change your mind somehow.
My head feels so heavy,
My heart is so empty.
I, I give it all.
I trip and fall.
I trip and fall,
I trip and fall.
I, I give it all.
I trip and fall, for you. (Oh.)
And I hope you wouldn’t mind, (Hope you wouldn’t mind)
Just one more try (Just one more try)
For something new,
I need you,
I need you.
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